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the forsaken
I am the one,
who lost faith in man along time ago,
they take a breath,
but don't remember to exhale,
they take an inch,
but they forget to give a mile,
I am the one,
who lost faith in god along time ago
he gave me breath,
but never taught me to exhale,
he gave me an inch,
but I keep on taking a mile.
[I am the sheep that god lost,
and never looked for again.
I am the one who stayed lost,
I am the forsaken!]
to many years ago,
I fear I fell from grace.
to many times I got lost,
I could never seem to find my place.
to many days of wondering,
always looking for answers,
to many nights of looking
all I ever found were cancers
to tiered to care!
to lost to see!
[I am the sheep that god lost,
and never looked for again.
I am the one who stayed lost,
I am the forsaken!]
with all these questions,
and endless burdens,
no sign of answers
NO RELIFE TO FIND!
I wonder how I can ever believe again
I find no answers.
I am the one,
who lost himself along time ago.
I am the one,
who can't believe in m
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Literature
It's A Sad Game.
It's all a matter of life and death,
when you live like your ment to die,
it's time you realize,
all those things fade in your emptey eyes,
your dieing to loose what you don't own
inside your selfish angers grown,
your time is up,your covers blown,
and now you'll die all on your OWN!
and I'll be the one that kills you!
you tal to me like your words don't cut
thier sharp as glass, it hurts me but
I'll live with everything you do,
just so I can kill you.
and watch your memories die
I hope you bleed,
just like you bled me dry
no more hate to feed
and not one more lie!
I won't stop until you cry
I wanna watch your memories die.
and bleed you like you bled me dry!
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Literature
the lesser of two goods.
An angle, a saint
and I'm stuck in between them
A malice, a martyr.
I'm to choose between them
a joker a devil
a sinner, a sin
and now I have to choose!
[and I
half expected you to wake up
when you saw me,
I half expected you to walk away,
when I came around
lash away your foolish pride
imitate the one who died.
I half expected you to disappear]
how pathetic you looked,
tied up with carb wire and thorns.
tacked up on the wall and thrown into a burning hell.
cast away and stripped of your crown
I have lost my reason,
I have thrown your hate away.
I havemade you worthless.
I have made you disappear!
[and I
half expected you to wake up
when you saw me,
I half expected you to walk away,
when I came around
lash away your foolish pride
imitate the one who died.
I half expected you to disappear]
You are the lesser of two goods!
rushing into hope
you are running for your hope,
keep on running from the hope.
keep a hold of hope.
hide away from hope.
kill your self with hope.
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Literature
RESTLESS ANIMATION
you pull my strings,
and burn my veins.
you shove me down,
you smother me,
stripping me down of my pride
you animate me.
[and I let it go,
manipulated by your face,
and your eyes
you make me move
with restless animation]
your spark that is a light.
taps at my viens
your spoon burns over the spark
and your needle gets under my aniemic flesh.
and we kiss.
[and I let it go,
manipulated by your face,
and your eyes
you make me move
with restless animation]
I trip, and fall
your serenge is a stick in my arm.
you tighten your grip on me,
and I can't slip away.
and my thirst is quenched
by the nector you produce.
you animate me
[and I let it go,
manipulated by your face,
and your eyes
you make me move
with restless animation]
you animate me
and I let you go.
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Literature
FATHER?
we have all been waiting for our reason.
we wait forever for our leader,
a guiding light and a friend strong and true
someone who is just like you,
but now he comes in question!
(how can he hold us together?
when he's a broken man?)
[this is the way it's ment to be
when you find him and look away.
you see the inside,
that makes the outside
so much better!]
but the martyr shows the light
to the leader, the faithful.
the things he's seen will fill the fright in people.
his disorder killed his own God.
he's known the pains not to be seen.
(how can he hold us together?
when he's a broken man?)
[this is the way it's ment to be
when you find him and look away.
you see the inside,
that makes the outside
so much better!]
and the outside willeat you alive
but the inside is still there after death.
oneday you will be filled
judged for your creed.
emptied for him, the God to hold us together
is this broken man!
(how can he hold us together?
when he's a broken man?)
[this is the way it's ment to b
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FUCKING FAKE :iconmuddytool:muddytool 0 6
Literature
she said
I've bled so long,
and still I'm strong
a storm is coming along,
I've caught my breath,
too the world on my shoulders,
as it got colder,
I DROWN IN THIS
I DRANK GOD'S PISS,
ALL FOR AN ANGEL'S KISS!
(and on the way down,
can you help me find my way?
and on your way down,
can you fly back up again)
and noone said
I'm not the only one who bled
for a God who's dead.
I went in the fog,
got lost in the bog
treated like a beaten dog,
just one more time
without reason or rhyme
would God commit this crime,
of living to long
and still going strong
just keep the storm coming along.
(and on the way down,
can you help me find my way?
and on your way down,
can you fly back up again)
[SHE SAID!
I don't wanna do it.
I don't wanna follow,
tired of the "screw it"
don't wanna be this hollow
and I save her
but I can't save myself anymore
when I play her,
I play myself once more]
this time, no one can, stop me
nothing, is in, my way
this time, I'm done, don't stop me
get out, of my, WAY!
(and on the way do
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Mature content
dear government :iconmuddytool:muddytool 0 14
Literature
pick up my pieces
what is left,
for me to say?
no more crying,
no more tears
I wonder why,
you show your fears,
but nothing makes me happier
than to break your heart.
now everyone watches,
as I fall apart.
[pick up my peices
put them in place
I've lost my reason,
it's lost in your face,
and everyone walks by,
but they don't see me cry,
until they pick up my peices,
and put me in place,]
I wonder why I'm alone,
damned to face my misery
why has god left me defenceless? alone
is there a reason to see?
noone stops to notice
if I'm alive,
sometimes I wonder,
how I survive.
[pick up my peices
put them in place
I've lost my reason,
it's lost in your face,
and everyone walks by,
but they don't see me cry,
until they pick up my peices,
and put me in place,]
IS THERE ANYTHING LEFT?
WHAT'S COME OVER THIS WORLD?
IS MY LIFE DOOMED
WHAT'S NEXT FOR ME HERE?
CAUSE I CAN'T WONDER FOREVER,
ALONE WITH MYSELF,
MY WORLD HAS CRUMBLED
AND SHATTERED ME LIKE GLASS SO GOD!
[pick up my peices
put them in place
I've lost my reason
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Literature
MY DRUG
Lush, Green, Habitual habit
These are the words that describe my dear,a
valley, of wonder and hope, and innocence burned and torched in your name.
mud, and water, the cross the martyr.and all you are to us an escape.
[your my drug, my quick fix, my cure, you make it easy to endure.
your my humanity, when the world closed it's door, your the one I adore.
your my drug.]
today, the silence has swallowed
all that was said, and the days pass,
there's no getting over, theres no getting through, without you.
[your my drug, my quick fix, my cure, you make it easy to endure.
your my humanity, when the world closed it's door, your the one I adore.
your my drug.]
AND i SCREAM and try, to comprehend your sorrow
BUT THE WAY you laugh just makes me go hollow
AND I CAN'T walk away or put you aside
I CAN'T DO THAT  I have already tried
I need you like the sunlight and the everyday rain,
your my escape from the word, and the chaos.
[your my drug, my quick fix, my cure, you make it easy to end
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Literature
happy medium
We can't be
what we want to be
it's always your way
the waay you want us
never follow our hearts
always in denial
never living to see
the day we all live
[there is no sacrifice
there is no compromise
there is no halfway there
there is no happy medium]
we die and for ourselfs live
this lie we buy and give
you stole and raped us all
we try but we can't run now.
[there is no sacrifice
there is no compromise
there is no halfway there
there is no happy medium]
SO FUCK US
FUCK US
FUCK US
as hard as you can,
HARDER HARDER HARDER!
as fast as you can
FASTER FASTER FASTER!
don't give up,
JUST FUCK US AND RUN AWAY!
with our innocence.
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Literature
unstrung hero
it's kinda hard to care when you have no motivation,
no start to jump you forward inyour crippled race,
people tell me to believe,
when all I wanna do is leave
they tell me god will lay me down
WHY GIVE ME THE RUN AROUND!
["WHERE IS YOUR FAITH?"
"where is your god?"
in this world in which we live
how can I derive on hopes and dreams alone?] X2
what can I say
that will take all my pain away
you preach until I break
make this torment go away
nothing left to saticfy
WHY SHOULD ANYONE EVEN TRY?
["WHERE IS YOUR FAITH?"
"where is your god?"
in this world in which we live
how can I derive on hopes and dreams alone?] X2
how far!
do I have to go?
how far must we go to find this God you think you know
we can't believe unless you show us,
bent and broken now bestow us,
take into consideration
God should be EMANCIPATION!
["WHERE IS YOUR FAITH?"
"where is your god?"
in this world in which we live
how can I derive on hopes and dreams alone?] X2
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I don't know by muddytool I don't know :iconmuddytool:muddytool 0 5
Literature
ENEMY
squinted eyes to recognize
stareing as if I'm a stranger.
shrouded in a cloud of mystery
run
run from the cadaver before you
I won't hurt you
I am as I've always been
myself
[I transform in you presence
change when your around
but you have seen me
the real me
do you recognize me
do you know me
it's me your friend
me
your worst enemy.]
my arabesque chenge
the suppoititous way I am
my sereph take me away!
[I transform in you presence
change when your around
but you have seen me
the real me
do you recognize me
do you know me
it's me your friend
me
your worst enemy.]
believe me
I am the same,
I am your friend
I will not hurt you
I am the one you know
I am your friend
your brother
your enemy
your worst nightmare
[I transform in you presence
change when your around
but you have seen me
the real me
do you recognize me
do you know me
it's me your friend
me
your worst enemy.]
trust me
I won't hurt you
don't be frightened
I love you
don't fret my dear
I will protect you
I will be here
always...a
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Mature content
scabs, for blacksundayangel :iconmuddytool:muddytool 0 10
Literature
in your eyes
in your eyes,
I am better than I ever was.
in your eyes,
I am a new man, a better man
in your eyes,
I am perfect.
in your eyes,
and you taught me who I am.
[in you eyes, I can never do wrong
in your eyes, I am strong
in your eyes, I am anyone but me
in your eyes, I wish the whole world could see
through your eyes.]
in your eyes,
you have faith in me.
in your eyes,
I am better than everybody,
in your eyes,
I have been saved,
in your eyes,
I am someone new.
in your eyes,
and you taught me how to see like you.
[in you eyes, I can never do wrong
in your eyes, I am strong
in your eyes, I am anyone but me
in your eyes, I wish the whole world could see
through your eyes.]
taught me how to see,
through your eyes
taught me how to see,
through your eyes
taught me how to see,
through your eyes
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caught in the act by bloodpainteddiary caught in the act :iconbloodpainteddiary:bloodpainteddiary 1 18
Literature
rough sex
I'll rip my fingernails down your back
I don't care if you don't like it
I'm doing it anyways.
I'll suck you dry of all you have
cuffed down and blinded
I won't let you see.
You writhe and pull beneath my touch
against your will I have my ways
I don't care if you don't like it
im doing it anyways.
I'll run my fingers through your hair
and pull until you scream my name
no more comfort in this bed for you to feel.
I tease you, I let you think that its over
as I lick your neck and purr in your ear
and slowly work my hand down to where you want it most.
You breathe faster
you kiss harder
I stop.
I sink my teeth into your neck
I watch little streams of blood start to run down your chest
it swirls with your sweat and the tear that fell.
My apathy for you in this moment is little
all I want to see is you begging for your mercy
begging for me to end this sour pleasure
So I do just that.
Slowly and tediously I undo your bindings
a look of exquisite vengeance in your eyes
I almost melt from your
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Literature
fucked at first sight
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
Baby you slipped me through the cracks
even though I wasn't chained
I held on to you
but now things will never be the same
deceived I was by your innocent face
fucked at first sight; you ran my mind
its jealousy now that clings to my arms
weighing them down
making it hard to walk
your poison ran out on me
invisibly dripping through the wounds that bleed
still slimed and rank by your infection
I'll rip at it now and show you what you made me do to myself
I stick my fingers in my wounds and pull
I want you to see how I was fucked at first sight
fucked by your lies
fucked by your smile
fucked by your confidence
but it was worth it
...just a kiss
bury me now
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
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Hyperbolism IV: Love by Raventhird Hyperbolism IV: Love :iconraventhird:Raventhird 25 49 crumbling fairy by bloodpainteddiary crumbling fairy :iconbloodpainteddiary:bloodpainteddiary 1 10
Literature
Surreal Truth
As long as I don't have to see you cry, Im fine
As long as you don't show your face, Im fine
As long as you leave this place, Im fine
Despite all the feelings I feel
And all the pain thats so real
Despite all the wasted time
That I wish were really mine
It's all gone, so long, now gone
Im sorry it had to be this way
I don't know what else to say
Mabey it will work some day
But now, it's gone
Some say that the wounds heal
I know now that it isnt real
But mabey it will work some day
So long, now gone
Im sorry it had to be this way
I don't know what else to say
Mabey it will work some day
But now, it's gone
Never meant to do this to you
Never meant for it to turn out this way
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:iconbehindtheshadows:BehindTheShadows 1 6
Literature
Please Don't Say Goodbye
Those little things we overlook;
Taken for granted, that one sweet look.
He smiles softly with those blue eyes
Looks at me, says his goodbyes.
It will be like always. . .
Those satin memories.
He just won't kiss
With those same blue seas.
The twinkle is now in a different light.
I just walk away, don't put up a fight.
I go through the motions of life each day.
Not really living my life my way.
I don't know how to care the way he wants me to.
But how was I supposed to know and now what will I do?
Just sit and sulk the year away?
He has that power.
Damn him!
I will forever be kept in his cage of love.
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princess by bloodpainteddiary princess :iconbloodpainteddiary:bloodpainteddiary 1 21 true love by bloodpainteddiary true love :iconbloodpainteddiary:bloodpainteddiary 1 14
Literature
Finished
i'm lying through my teeth again
i won't say it, no i won't say it
the simple curse that should mean forever
but always murdered
though it's icy grip remains
upon my heart, upon my throat
two of a kind
stretched and scarred
on two of a kind it stays
so slit my throat, you know i like it rough
and spill my blood go on and lap it up
i know you like it
taste me, feel me, love me, kill me
love me, kill me
i'm crying tears of fear again
they're falling, always falling
like the words i dropped, a slip of the tongue
i've imprisoned you
i've locked us up
stuck together, yet still alone
you returned the curse but it's empty now
your voice like me is empty now
so cut me fast, yeah my skin is tough
kiss my neck, go on and fuck me up
you are dirty just like me
like me, love me, rape me, fill me
love me, kill me
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Literature
Unfinished
i'm lying through my teeth again
i won't say it, no i won't say it
the simple curse that should mean forever
but always murdered
though it's icy grip remains
upon my heart, upon my throat
two of a kind
stretched and scarred on two of kind it stays
so slit my throat you know i like it rough
and spill my blood go on and lap it up
i know you like it
tase me, feel me, love me, kill me
love me kill me
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Where there is death there is by bloodpainteddiary Where there is death there is :iconbloodpainteddiary:bloodpainteddiary 1 8 BLASPHEMY by nooneissafe187
Mature content
BLASPHEMY :iconnooneissafe187:nooneissafe187 3 16
Literature
ragdoll
i was heaven sent, but now i'm hell bound
i was falling in love but i've hit the ground
when my body landed it made a sickening sound
so now i'm scattered, my limbs all around
someone love me broken, i'm waiting to be found
i'm just a ragdoll longing for your arms
i want you to hold me, but no cause for alarm
just throw me in a corner, i've been bad
i'll just pretend i'm the best you've ever had
i'm holding my own hand after i fell
my fear's so intense, i'm choking on the smell
i'm in jagged pieces like a broken shell
how i'm to sew myself together i can't tell
childhood relic in such a heavenly hell
i'm just a ragdoll longing for your arms
i want to hold me, but no cause for alarm
just throw me in a corner i've been bad
lying and saying your the best i've ever had
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muddytool
IMA JEW
United States
Current Residence: the big FL
Favourite genre of music: METAL, grunge, alt, and classic rock.
Favourite photographer: sammy
Favourite style of art: poems and lyrics
Operating System: an E.R. table
MP3 player of choice: Fucked if I know
Shell of choice: um, sea, no macaronie
Wallpaper of choice: none my walls are bare! like my ass!
Skin of choice: dead, live, it doesn't matter
Favourite cartoon character: quagmyer, I hope thats how you spell it, brian and stewy from family guy.
Personal Quote: oh is someone a little BITCH!
Interests
Have you ever?
(X)=yes ( )=no

(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) Seen a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries
(  ) had a serious surgery
(  ) gone out in public in your pajamas
(  ) kissed a stranger
(  ) given someone of the opposite sex a made up phone number
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) given oral sex
(x) had alcohol
(x) felt isolated
(x) laughed and had milk/coke/juice/water come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) gotten a tattoo
( ) made out in an elevator [I wish]
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts *it hurts whereever you kick a guy*
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
(x) written a song
(  ) broken a bone
(x) been high
(  ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(  ) flashed someone
(x) seen a therapist
(  ) done the splits
(  ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(  ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
(  ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(  ) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) gotten a speeding ticket
( ) crashed into a friend's car if in a bike, shopping cart, skateboard, longboard
(  ) fallen down a flight of stairs
(  ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) had fun with someone of the opposite sex in the shower
(  ) had fun with someone of the same sex in the shower
(  ) eaten a gallon of ice cream by yourself
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) had something stolen from you
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to the US
(  ) walked into the wrong class & sat thru the whole thing
(  ) slept with a co-worker
(x) written a love letter
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) gotten an autograph from someone famous
( ) had children
( ) written a bad check
(x) seen someone die
(x) did something cruel and unusual to a sibiling
(x) burped at a nice restrauant
( ) been to Africa
(  ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(  ) killed someone
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(  ) tried to fail a class* I don't have to try*
( ) Been on a plane
(  ) gotten motion sickness
(x) seen the rocky horror picture show
(  ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) been rejected
(x) been to a funeral
(x) proposed to someone
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been suspended from school
( ) been snowboarding
(x) been moshing at a rock show
( ) been to a motocross race
(  ) killed a pet
(  ) started a rumor
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
(x) done hard drugs
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken pain killers
(x) loved someone and sincerely missed him/her
(x) loved someone so much it hurt

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alkelimetalloid Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2007  Professional Traditional Artist
hey man, long time no see how's it going?
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Koutenka Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2005
YOU HAVE BEEN PAINTED YELLOW!!!

Spread the DA YELLOW ALIEN love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)


*dingding* RULES:
1- You can PAINT the person who painted you!
2- You can't paint the person more than 3 times
3- You -MUST- paint 10 other people
4- You should paint them in public! Paste it on their user page! c'mon..don't be scared of public displays of affection
5- Random paint are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
6- You should most definitly get started painting right away!
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nooneissafe187 Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2005
hey man, ive been checkin shit again, and ill be putting more stuff on again, so start commenting and spread the word plz! oh, and check out my new journal.........
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xschmerzlosx Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2005  Hobbyist General Artist
T00L :!: :headbang: I love T00L :)
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defelite Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2005
mmmm.. Tool!! :heart: Any fan of Tool is my friend! Yay! :glomp::hug:
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muddytool Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2005
well thanx. ^_^ I guess I should watch you then huh?
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disintegrator Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2005
:salute:
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