I am the one,
who lost faith in man along time ago,
they take a breath,
but don't remember to exhale,
they take an inch,
but they forget to give a mile,
I am the one,
who lost faith in god along time ago
he gave me breath,
but never taught me to exhale,
he gave me an inch,
but I keep on taking a mile.
[I am the sheep that god lost,
and never looked for again.
I am the one who stayed lost,
I am the forsaken!]
to many years ago,
I fear I fell from grace.
to many times I got lost,
I could never seem to find my place.
to many days of wondering,
always looking for answers,
to many nights of looking
all I ever found were ca
It's all a matter of life and death,
when you live like your ment to die,
it's time you realize,
all those things fade in your emptey eyes,
your dieing to loose what you don't own
inside your selfish angers grown,
your time is up,your covers blown,
and now you'll die all on your OWN!
and I'll be the one that kills you!
you tal to me like your words don't cut
thier sharp as glass, it hurts me but
I'll live with everything you do,
just so I can kill you.
and watch your memories die
I hope you bleed,
just like you bled me dry
no more hate to feed
and not one more lie!
I won't stop until you cry
I wanna watch your memories die.
An angle, a saint
and I'm stuck in between them
A malice, a martyr.
I'm to choose between them
a joker a devil
a sinner, a sin
and now I have to choose!
[and I
half expected you to wake up
when you saw me,
I half expected you to walk away,
when I came around
lash away your foolish pride
imitate the one who died.
I half expected you to disappear]
how pathetic you looked,
tied up with carb wire and thorns.
tacked up on the wall and thrown into a burning hell.
cast away and stripped of your crown
I have lost my reason,
I have thrown your hate away.
I havemade you worthless.
I have made you disappear!
[and I
half expected
you pull my strings,
and burn my veins.
you shove me down,
you smother me,
stripping me down of my pride
you animate me.
[and I let it go,
manipulated by your face,
and your eyes
you make me move
with restless animation]
your spark that is a light.
taps at my viens
your spoon burns over the spark
and your needle gets under my aniemic flesh.
and we kiss.
[and I let it go,
manipulated by your face,
and your eyes
you make me move
with restless animation]
I trip, and fall
your serenge is a stick in my arm.
you tighten your grip on me,
and I can't slip away.
and my thirst is quenched
by the nector you produce.
you anima
we have all been waiting for our reason.
we wait forever for our leader,
a guiding light and a friend strong and true
someone who is just like you,
but now he comes in question!
(how can he hold us together?
when he's a broken man?)
[this is the way it's ment to be
when you find him and look away.
you see the inside,
that makes the outside
so much better!]
but the martyr shows the light
to the leader, the faithful.
the things he's seen will fill the fright in people.
his disorder killed his own God.
he's known the pains not to be seen.
(how can he hold us together?
when he's a broken man?)
[this is the way it's ment to be
I've bled so long,
and still I'm strong
a storm is coming along,
I've caught my breath,
too the world on my shoulders,
as it got colder,
I DROWN IN THIS
I DRANK GOD'S PISS,
ALL FOR AN ANGEL'S KISS!
(and on the way down,
can you help me find my way?
and on your way down,
can you fly back up again)
and noone said
I'm not the only one who bled
for a God who's dead.
I went in the fog,
got lost in the bog
treated like a beaten dog,
just one more time
without reason or rhyme
would God commit this crime,
of living to long
and still going strong
just keep the storm coming along.
(and on the way down,
can you help me find my
what is left,
for me to say?
no more crying,
no more tears
I wonder why,
you show your fears,
but nothing makes me happier
than to break your heart.
now everyone watches,
as I fall apart.
[pick up my peices
put them in place
I've lost my reason,
it's lost in your face,
and everyone walks by,
but they don't see me cry,
until they pick up my peices,
and put me in place,]
I wonder why I'm alone,
damned to face my misery
why has god left me defenceless? alone
is there a reason to see?
noone stops to notice
if I'm alive,
sometimes I wonder,
how I survive.
[pick up my peices
put them in place
I've lost my reason,
it's
Lush, Green, Habitual habit
These are the words that describe my dear,a
valley, of wonder and hope, and innocence burned and torched in your name.
mud, and water, the cross the martyr.and all you are to us an escape.
[your my drug, my quick fix, my cure, you make it easy to endure.
your my humanity, when the world closed it's door, your the one I adore.
your my drug.]
today, the silence has swallowed
all that was said, and the days pass,
there's no getting over, theres no getting through, without you.
[your my drug, my quick fix, my cure, you make it easy to endure.
your my humanity, when the world closed it's door, your the one I
I can't breath.
I'm breaking down again.
I can't see.
I'm falling in another hole.
help me see again.
I can't think.
just another drink.
and I'm down
(but I'm not falling down.
not breaking into a million pieces for you.
I may love you more now.
but I'm not breaking down.)
hit my knees and pray one last time.
mold me like clay again.
you made God damn fun.
use me!
like you did before.
like I was nothing more...
than your little tool again
(but I'm not falling down.
not breaking into a million pieces for you.
I may love you more now.
but I'm not breaking down over you.)
I fell before
went through hell before
all for t
He hung on the cross, stareing into her eyes. he held only a dagger but due to the spikes in his wrists it was a simple tease. she did not look at him yet instead looked at the ground. "please." he begged. "please end this." he dropped the dagger to the base of the cross. she looked at him. "you know what you have to do." he said with tears running down his face.
"must I?" she asked.
"please."
"I love you." she weeped. as she grabbed the dagger she felt a tear drop from his eyes. she looked up and smiled.
"do it." he begged.
"I love you." she weeped again.
"as I you." he assured her. she started to walk off. he hung his head.
I'll rip my fingernails down your back
I don't care if you don't like it
I'm doing it anyways.
I'll suck you dry of all you have
cuffed down and blinded
I won't let you see.
You writhe and pull beneath my touch
against your will I have my ways
I don't care if you don't like it
im doing it anyways.
I'll run my fingers through your hair
and pull until you scream my name
no more comfort in this bed for you to feel.
I tease you, I let you think that its over
as I lick your neck and purr in your ear
and slowly work my hand down to where you want it most.
You breathe faster
you kiss harder
I stop.
I sink my teeth into your neck
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Baby you slipped me through the cracks
even though I wasn't chained
I held on to you
but now things will never be the same
deceived I was by your innocent face
fucked at first sight; you ran my mind
its jealousy now that clings to my arms
weighing them down
making it hard to walk
your poison ran out on me
invisibly dripping through the wounds that bleed
still slimed and rank by your infection
I'll rip at it now and show you what you made me do to myself
I stick my fingers in my wounds and pull
I want you to see how I was fucked at first sight
fucked by your lies
fucked by your
As long as I don't have to see you cry, Im fine
As long as you don't show your face, Im fine
As long as you leave this place, Im fine
Despite all the feelings I feel
And all the pain thats so real
Despite all the wasted time
That I wish were really mine
It's all gone, so long, now gone
Im sorry it had to be this way
I don't know what else to say
Mabey it will work some day
But now, it's gone
Some say that the wounds heal
I know now that it isnt real
But mabey it will work some day
So long, now gone
Im sorry it had to be this way
I don't know what else to say
Mabey it will work some day
But now, it's gone
Never meant to do
Those little things we overlook;
Taken for granted, that one sweet look.
He smiles softly with those blue eyes
Looks at me, says his goodbyes.
It will be like always. . .
Those satin memories.
He just won't kiss
With those same blue seas.
The twinkle is now in a different light.
I just walk away, don't put up a fight.
I go through the motions of life each day.
Not really living my life my way.
I don't know how to care the way he wants me to.
But how was I supposed to know and now what will I do?
Just sit and sulk the year away?
He has that power.
Damn him!
I will forever be kept in his cage of love.
Looks can be decieving,
wrong or right it's all the same.
don't mean to be misleading.
but I can't take you if you came.
you FIGHT off
everyone else.
you SAY no
but I say yes.
and you follow
blindly go along
not knowing whats in store around the bend.
you follow
eyes shut no recolection
you stay close
keep yourself shut off from the world and the deception.
[close your eye's and follow me child
ask no questions little preciouse one.
bite your toungh and feel it rushing
find yourself and keep me laughing.]
I will be decieving
I will tell you wrong from right
I will be misleading
I would take you but you came.
you FOUG
Current Residence: the big FL Favourite genre of music: METAL, grunge, alt, and classic rock. Favourite photographer: sammy Favourite style of art: poems and lyrics Operating System: an E.R. table MP3 player of choice: Fucked if I know Shell of choice: um, sea, no macaronie Wallpaper of choice: none my walls are bare! like my ass! Skin of choice: dead, live, it doesn't matter Favourite cartoon character: quagmyer, I hope thats how you spell it, brian and stewy from family guy. Personal Quote: oh is someone a little BITCH!
Favourite Visual Artist
summer
Favourite Movies
fight club, ghost in the shell, Donnie darko, the increadables, and t.n.b.c.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
TOOL, A.P.C., Fear Factory, stone temple pilots, and pink floyd
Have you ever?
(X)=yes ( )=no
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) Seen a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries
( ) had a serious surgery
( ) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) given someone of the opposite sex a made up phone number
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) given oral sex
(x) had alcohol
(x) felt isolated
(x) laughed and had milk/coke/juice/water come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) gotten a tattoo
( ) made out in an elevator [I wish]
(x) swore at your parents
(x)
so not long ago TOOL fans got a scare, singer, maynard James Keenen "found jesus." BUT! fear not fans, it turns out from this artical I read. he was just drunk.
artical reads:
Good news, April fools fans. The writing and recording is back under way. When approached for comment on his recent encounter with the Son of God, Maynard said, "That guy's a punk!"
As it turns out, Maynard was out "location scouting" near the Fourth Street bridge in downtown Los Angeles when he "found Jesus."
"Turns out he was here the whole time, and not that difficult to find if you know where to look," Maynard reported. Apparently Jesus offered him the positio
hello I'm back, I've been a little busy. I got a new job, more hours, I've beed doing my school work too!^_^ so yea. my job is way time consuming. but I get lots of money. I also set up a myspace page. and I have a band. we also have a myspace page. sorry I don't really have time to read all the journals or look at all the deviations. but I will go page to page and see the deviations. in time.
P.S. NEW QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE IS OUT TODAY!
Spread the DA YELLOW ALIEN love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)
*dingding* RULES:
1- You can PAINT the person who painted you!
2- You can't paint the person more than 3 times
3- You -MUST- paint 10 other people
4- You should paint them in public! Paste it on their user page! c'mon..don't be scared of public displays of affection
5- Random paint are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
6- You should most definitly get started painting right away!
hey man, ive been checkin shit again, and ill be putting more stuff on again, so start commenting and spread the word plz! oh, and check out my new journal.........